found an old list of Goals on my laptop - hilareous

I made this list when I was 21, forgot about it, lived my life- here are the results. Commentary provided by my currently 26 year old self. Lesson: life looks different after college. Very different. 

selfish life goals: (The title itself is pretty telling. why am I selfish for having life goals besides " take care of parents, make sure brother isn't in jail. ")

2 years: by age 23

drive. WIN 26

learn to drive a standard. FAIL. We also sold our only standard in a really sketchy turn of events, and I'll have to rely on the charity of friends if I ever want to learn this. You know to be a race car driver. 26

save $3,000. EH I'm sure at one time or another I've accomplished this, but it hasn't been steady because EH life. 26

get a car (a standard, preferably used, preferably in decent shape.) IT'S an automatic 2000 Honda Civic and it's my Dad's, BUT I GUESS WIN because I put gas in it 26

go to graduate school. FAIL 26

get certified to teach. FAIL 26 (not really sure I want to do this anymore anyway.)

get an apartment. (with danielle?) WIN 26 plus its with a man and there's CATS in it.

grow orchids and expand my plant collection. SORTA WIN 26 I have two small orchids- they don't have flowers because my cats ate them, but they are far from dead. 

build a/ several terrarium(s). FAIL 26 Although a guest did mistake my ratchet dried up fish tank as a terrarium, when in reality the fish died last year and I just let it be a fancy humidifier for the living room till it was dry. so YES FAIL.

5 years: by age 26 THis oughta be good.

gyotaku. NOT YET 26 I'm going to buy a smelly scaly fish and do this. Remember, freeze the fish so its not stinky.

go to NCECA ( means at least 500$ investment) WIN WIN 26 I did this!! I got to stay with the beautiful talented Lauren Scales and meet her wonderful godsend of a family, meet up with some awesome college friends and get re-inspired to be creative! Went to lectures, saw galleries, bought mugs (one's already broken). 

take more ceramics classes, work more on the wheel. SORTA 26 I took one post college, the quality was meh. 

become a teacher, and be good at it. FAIL 26 ...just nope.

get a fridge big enough to support owning the following:

any pitcher plants I fancy. NOPE HAVE CATS INSTEAD 26

Venus flytraps. CATS 26

build an indoor greenhouse to support new tropical species. DID I MENTION CATS 26

get an apartment for me and my plants and my indoor greenhouse. SORTA BUT WITH MORE CATS 26

10 years. by age 31

see the pacific. plant shop there. Family and friends on the West coast, Buttering up in progress.

get a wheel. DONE BITCH. NOW TO USE IT. 26

build a kiln. looking into buying one from a rundown elementary school, you know for one of my many hobbies.

build a press. 

get a dog.

train that dog to be an awesome one. DO CATS COUNT?26

 build an awesome outdoor greenhouse. 

take Jacquelyn's little one on a trip. THERES THREE NOW good luck with this HAHAHA 26

SO this is how I thought life would look, and honestly a lot has changed, I have two cats, a live in boyfriend, three neices (!) and a new nephew who I adore. I do not draw, paint, scult, or throw enough anymore. I make two prints per year- coming from someone who used to bust out printmaking for 8-12 hours at a time, this actually makes me really sad. Overall I have learned that when you don't have a studio space, life is not kind to the arts. I have take nup a little digital photography and some REALLY REALLY basic photoshop skills, because I have access to a camera and my desktop has the software, but I miss the grand gestures and the big paintings and the heavy metals. cats and oil paint aren't best friends. I also really miss questing for knowledge, like we were out the other day and I couldn't remember the name of this portrait painter- I felt like everything I said I was dredging up from years of dust, and I feel like I haven't learned or looked at anything new in a long time, getting a case of the stale brain. 

NEW FASCINATION WITH TICHELS

found out this is a thing

A Tichel (yiddish for scarf) is a head covering worn by jewish married women who keep their hair under wraps for modesty's sake. Most of what I've read seems to point to the fact that being modest helps people not be distracted by all your boobs hanging out and all your skin showing so they can look at your face and understand what you are saying. These tichels and turbans can get incredibly intricate and are made with many textures of scarves, often wrapped over a shaper and/or headband to keep errant hairs tucked away, prevent slippage, and add the illusion of more hair, or a large full bun under the scarves. Looking at some of the intricate styles, I can understand how a foundation would be helpful to keep your neck upright lol.

relatively simple tichel, they get crazy 

So bottom line- I've always been fascinated by hair wrapping and scarves in general- on my neck, on my head, as a belt I love scarves, so this was a great find for me. I normally bog out on tutorials- I get tired of seeing the same one over and over again, heres how to wrap a scarf into a curlicue in the middle of your forehead, or slightly to the left! It doesn't thrill me. This community makes me feel impressed- nothing against other scarf tutorials out there, but most of those are about protecting your hair from manipulation damage, and the tichel is for hiding hair away because it is an intimate part of you. So it is definitely a different kind of scarf tying, you won't find your ancient Aunt Jemima bandanna, your peppy signature 50's Marilyn square scarf with bow, your modern 'rose' or low bun style in this community. Instead most scarf styles start out smooth on top, and are made by wrapping and layering textures and colors while tucking in ends, or leaving them out like pony tails. I've also been checking out their blog and watching some cool turban tutorials. It just makes sense as I'm getting into playing around with color on my face, I'd want to take away the distraction of my hair as well once in a while. My only caveat is that I am not Jewish, and while google seems to say no one will mind, I'm not sure If i can get around the under garment gear that poofs these up so nicely- thats the only thing the lovely youtube tutorials for quick updos have on the tichel- nothing underneath required but your own hairs. 

I cant wait to have a bad hair day :)